Total silence...

What could I be referring to? The silent treatment? The silence out on the countryside? The silence that hits me when I put the earplugs in? So many different silences they are difficult to keep track of… this time I was merely referring to the fact that this blog has been shamefully abandoned the last two weeks and for this I am sorry…

Its Saturday morning in Jönköping, I’ve opened my eyes, but still in bed, letting my thoughts wander off into space… A friend stayed the night and I can hear that shes awake on the couch, but we are still in morning silence :) its like the moments in church where no one wants to be the first to speak after the service… its silence… here right now its comfortable sharing this silence with a friend. Soon I predict I will get up, make us a cup of tea and then have some breakfast…

The rest of the weekend is wonderfully unplanned… nothing that must be done, nothing that demands my attention… Some people I would like to see and they are probably too many as usual, but I am loving the fact that nothing is planned for once.

I shall return… haha with information about what this weekend held ;)

An amazing woman and an amazing life!

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Mma Elisabet Keletso… born sometime round 50 years ago in Botswana. In many ways a remarkable woman, whom I can’t even begin to do justice through the use of mere words. Still the pain of loosing her demands that I write something short in honour of who she was.

My picture of her is painted through the eyes of a child, myself while growing up, and only recently have I slightly begun to understand who she truly was. (The picture at the top is from Christmas 2007 in their lounge.) While growing up in Selebi-Phikwe, Mma and Rra Keletso where close friends of my parents and the family. Consequently they where often there for us.

I have memories of playing with Debbie (one of their daughters) outside their house while Mma Keletso was cooking… or I remember stealing Tsego (another daughter) from kindergarden and bringing her home with me after school without informing Rra Keletso…

Latest memories are from last year when I was blessed to spend Easter and Christmas with them in Selebi-Phikwe. Easter I was with my parents and it was the first time in 15 years that I met Mma and Rra Keletso face to face, yet it was like coming home to family. Over Christmas when I was there alone with a friend from Sweden we spent quality time with the whole family and I remember Mma Keletsos words: “Emma, no matter where you are in the world, you are always part of our family – don’t forget it!” Today I share their pain in loosing her, but still wish there was more I could do.

This morning I got a skype-call from aunty Mavis in Selebi-Phikwe informing me that Mma Keletso passed away last night - my heart broke. Not only for loosing an amazing person in my life, but for her family and friends in Botswana. I want to be there for my sisters and brother, give Debbie and Tsego a big hug, talk to Dixi, play with Abe and hold Victoria.

In reality all I can do is send my condolences and pray for them in Botswana. Share in their pain and hope that there is a way through. Share tears…

There is so much more that can be said about her, how she was the strength of the family, how she managed to always make ends meet, how she stood by her husband, how she was a great mother, how she spoke to me about living my life, how she corrected me sternly but with a smile, how she was a great friend, how she was an amazing woman of God, how she made people smile… but in the end all the words feel small and without essence.

I pray that she is home with our father in heaven and no longer has to go through pain and sorrow!

Bambi's monday morning

Woke up 05.00 had a nice morning moment at home with breakfast and reading, made my bed, had my bag packed and then off to the station... Was slightly shocked when outside the door the pavement was covered in snow!!! This would have been no problem if it was not for the fact that I have decided its supposed to be spring and only had my sneakers on... after walking 10 min realizing that i wasn't covering the ground I needed in order to get to the station on time (since i was slipping all over the place) i got on a bus... feels slightly rediculous when the bussride is only 5 min ;)

However got to the station on time, the first train behaved, the second got of to a good start and now... well... theres no power in the tracks so we sit here...

All around me I here people who have never spoken to each other all of a sudden become great friends uniting against their common enemy the train company ;) Amazing how people put their differences aside in order to have someone to share the experience with... something we should probably do more often and not just limit ourselves to only talking to strangers when we're in a crisis :) haha... sounds weird, but hopefully you got what I meant!

Blessings for this coming week! Try connecting with someone new, and if you need the help of circumstances, borrow a dog and go for a walk, or a kid in a pram, or get on a train that will give you trouble and I ensure you that before the walk or the ride is over you will have made a new connection!

Crash boom bang

Sometimes its as easy as a hello and sometimes its as easy as a goodbye...

Sometimes it hurts and hopefully the sometimes will soon become pastimes.

Cause it hurts

way past bedtime

Went to the gym tonight aiming to get my body tired and ready for sleep... seems to have backfired... am high on endorfines, can't sleep... but my alarm will go of in 5 hours... argh....

Blessings for a tired tuesday

New week = new opportunities

Sometimes life takes twists and turns that you don't count on and all you can do is hang in there and see where the ride takes you.

At least that's one way of seeing it :)

This week is just starting, I've had an amazing evening with relaxation and preparation for the coming week. So all I have to say right now is make sure you seize the day and don't let opportunities slip away...