Sometimes stuff makes sense and suck at the same time...
My concious agrees and my heart disagrees, kinda sucks in total and feels like the right thing as well... hm... what to do... Not that I have much choice in the matter... One of those things where I have to respect the other person... as said... it sucks!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Time to shake the ass
Sometimes life offers opportunities to escape reality a little bit or maybe a better terminology is opportunity to shed some energy :PTonight is a night like that... I am meeting up with a good friend and we are hitting the dancefloors of the town to shake some ass... I pitty the man that tries to pull us tonight... ;) Just because I am on the dancefloor does not invite to touch, such moves result in a black eye for the bloke :P
Just wish to remind you all to enjoy the extra small moments of life! They are all over the place each day, the challenge is to find them and enjoy them a little extra, remembering that they will never come around again!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Just thoughts
I'm on my back in the sofa with a laptop in my lap :) My two cousins have gone for a walk attempting to get the one kid to sleep, while possibly picking up the other from daycare on their way back. Different lives from mine altogether :P
However days like these are rare and special, time to just chill, to be with people I love and who love me. Not for something I deliver or produce, but simply because I am me... It's a good feeling!
My mind starts wandering of into places I'm not sure is healthy; will I ever be in a house, with a husband and kids? not sure... do I want to be..? I think I do... The thought of sharing my life with someone is appealing. It brings a longing that I wasn't sure I previously possessed. Question is where it leaves me? As far as I'm concerned you don't just walk on to the street and shop for a man to parttake in your life?
Ok - so my life is kinda a mess... haha... I'll be the first to admit to that... I have somewhere to stay for another week... then, who knows. I am in a city I want to be in, just need to figure out how that is going to happen. I have a job 3 hours away, will be commuting a few days per week. My friends are scattered all over the place, thanks to the fact that I have been scattered all over the place! Now that I just want to settle down, be somewhere, impact lives a little more than the honeymoon period of a relationship I find myself on the verge of being lost. Even hesitating on the simple question if I have it in me? Whether I do or don't it isn't exactly lined up to meet a man, maybe I've stumbled onto him already, but I'm not sure he thinks so... Till later skater!
Now it is time to prepair for the return of the children :) I shall be the fun aunty who plays and makes them laugh :P Then convince myself that I'm not missing out cause I don't have my own...
However days like these are rare and special, time to just chill, to be with people I love and who love me. Not for something I deliver or produce, but simply because I am me... It's a good feeling!
My mind starts wandering of into places I'm not sure is healthy; will I ever be in a house, with a husband and kids? not sure... do I want to be..? I think I do... The thought of sharing my life with someone is appealing. It brings a longing that I wasn't sure I previously possessed. Question is where it leaves me? As far as I'm concerned you don't just walk on to the street and shop for a man to parttake in your life?
Ok - so my life is kinda a mess... haha... I'll be the first to admit to that... I have somewhere to stay for another week... then, who knows. I am in a city I want to be in, just need to figure out how that is going to happen. I have a job 3 hours away, will be commuting a few days per week. My friends are scattered all over the place, thanks to the fact that I have been scattered all over the place! Now that I just want to settle down, be somewhere, impact lives a little more than the honeymoon period of a relationship I find myself on the verge of being lost. Even hesitating on the simple question if I have it in me? Whether I do or don't it isn't exactly lined up to meet a man, maybe I've stumbled onto him already, but I'm not sure he thinks so... Till later skater!
Now it is time to prepair for the return of the children :) I shall be the fun aunty who plays and makes them laugh :P Then convince myself that I'm not missing out cause I don't have my own...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Back to reality?
Sometimes you wake up and realize that life is no more or less than just life! Know the feeling?
Every day is full of emotions, questions, decisions and moments... All of which you either cherish or just let go.
The last 10 days have contained a little bit of everything! Haha - ok, that wasn't exactly specific, but I've had moments where I've laughed till I cried. I've been out in the forest on horseback and yelled my lungs out. I've been warm and cuddly, also cold and freezing! I've been exited and extatic but also sad and a little down.
On the whole I would say that I have had a good 10 days :) Sorry for keeping quite on the blog, will be better and let you know whats happening :)
Blessings
Every day is full of emotions, questions, decisions and moments... All of which you either cherish or just let go.
The last 10 days have contained a little bit of everything! Haha - ok, that wasn't exactly specific, but I've had moments where I've laughed till I cried. I've been out in the forest on horseback and yelled my lungs out. I've been warm and cuddly, also cold and freezing! I've been exited and extatic but also sad and a little down.
On the whole I would say that I have had a good 10 days :) Sorry for keeping quite on the blog, will be better and let you know whats happening :)
Blessings
Monday, September 29, 2008
Biltong
2 Days left until I get my biltong :)
Dad has been in Africa for 6 weeks, obviously the most precious is that he has come home and we get to meet him again, then on a close second spot is the fact that he has brought us biltong!!! Gonna be lovely to put my teeth into it :D
On general I must say that life is treating me well. Had a talk with my neurosurgeon and he is calm again, so am I so all is well and my health is constantly improving! What is there to complain about?
Tomorrow I'm heading a little south to meet my sister and her family, then wednesday is meeting the folks, my gramps and then back to town again. Thursday Ramona is coming for the weekend! This week looks like it is set up to be another awesome time in my life!
Love to you all!
Dad has been in Africa for 6 weeks, obviously the most precious is that he has come home and we get to meet him again, then on a close second spot is the fact that he has brought us biltong!!! Gonna be lovely to put my teeth into it :D
On general I must say that life is treating me well. Had a talk with my neurosurgeon and he is calm again, so am I so all is well and my health is constantly improving! What is there to complain about?
Tomorrow I'm heading a little south to meet my sister and her family, then wednesday is meeting the folks, my gramps and then back to town again. Thursday Ramona is coming for the weekend! This week looks like it is set up to be another awesome time in my life!
Love to you all!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Trust and truth
Sometimes life is just about trusting... You trust that you'll make it, that the jump will go ok, that the landing will be safe and that you can continue...
Every day we make choices about trusting people, sometimes its rewarded other times it ends up in hurt and pain. One thing is certain, we can only keep mounting again and again after we fall... if we don't let people in it will almost always end in pain or even worst... lonelyness!
Trust someone today!!!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Red wine night?
Maybe tonight will be a night to finnish saras bottle of red?! Only the future can tell.
The rest of the day I have absolutely no idea of what to do... frustrating... and the weather sucks! Guessing I'll have to look forward to that bottle :)
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