I am so tired...

...all the time!

Feels wierd, no matter how much I rest it feels like my body just ran a marathon! The wounds are healing nicely though and I feel a little better each day that passes.

Today I have had moment in the Swedish sun while my mother was in the garden. Its amazingly over 20 degrees outside so I just had a top and a skirt on, allowing some d-vitamin to hit home :)

The meadow is full of flowers and looks more like a colourful see than a piece of plane grass. All in all spring has hit the Sweden full on and it is wonderful to see it.

Sickness

So, here I am... long silence that I will try to rectify...

I came to Sweden the 26th March, started seeing doctors straight away and life quickly became about getting the decease sorted.

Have made a second home at Linköpings University Hospital at the neurosurgical department where they externalized my shunt after an inital icp measurement and then removed my gaulle bladder due to infektion. After ensuring no more infektion in my tummy they put the shunt back on saturday and I have just returned home an hour ago... Will try to keep you all a little more updated now :D

Must say that I miss South Africa, but in trying to enjoy what I have it is an amazingly beautifull spring and the swedish countryside is showing itself from a splendid side.

Blessings from Emma

Sweden

Trip went well, will update more detail soon :)

No Water...

Ok, sun is up, I'm awake, go to the bathroom for a morning shower... realize that there is nooooo water!!!! How come? Have called the people in charge, they don't know why, but no one in the area has water right now... frustration is only the beginning! I mean, its not a favorite to brush my teeth in diet coke???

So in other words not the best start to the day then. Wondering what else will happen today?

10 days ago I had surgery for 3rd time in 6 months, am doing ok, recovering according to plan, at least I hope so :) There are a few concerns, but nothing that has me back iin the ward yet :)

No sense to this post, just a little off info, so have a good day and I'll be back better later :)

Who I am according to my birthday :)

♥MAY = SEXY♥

Suave and compromising.
Funny and humorous.
Stubborn.
Sweet talkative.
Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed.
Loyal.
Does work well with others.
Very confident.
An awesome kisser.
Sensitive.
A very good girlfriend/boyfriend.
Amazing Smile.
Positive Attitude.
Thinking generous.
Good memory.
Clever and knowledgeable.
Loves to look for information.
Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh.
Able to motivate oneself and others.
Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing.
Hyper.
Has All The Characteristics of John Carrico
Bubbly personality.
Suductive.
Boy/girl crazy.
Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling.
Super sexy.
Extremley hot but has brains.

Life

I'm good, surprisingly good.

Like everyone I have my ups and downs, moments of question, moments of wonder. I carry questions that I fear don't have an answer and still I can't let them go. Possibly thats the nature of being human, wanting to understand it all, wanting the full insight, or maybe its just me :)

The new year has started well, there is room for hope, surprises, expectations, disappointments, questions, friends, family, wellbeing and health. So it is with hope and expectation that I look forward to what this year has for me. Everyday is a new page in my book, unwritten and waiting for me to fill it with content. As content is what will take me forward in my life.

I suppose that lack of content will not stop time and I will get older as the days pass, but with content I will be able to feel that my life is moving, that it is not only days passing, but that maybe I am making a difference to someone, and maybe that difference is what makes it worth while.

I still have no answers but possibly this year, 2008, will bring some to light, bring some insight into a few corners of my life and thereby hopefully continue to broaden my horizon.

So for those of you who read this, keep an open mind, keep your eyes open and don't be afraid to see a little bit more of the world. Allow yourself to gain a broader horizon and gather more experience, more wisdom, more of everything.

Love

Sometimes I wonder...

I wonder... why do we go through the things we do in order to achieve the things we want to? Do we really know what we want? Or has someone told us what we are supposed to want and that is what we then transfer into our minds and learn to accept as truths...

I wonder... how come it is so hard to find love? Why is it seemingly impossible to find the match... or even worst, having found it once, why is it so impossible to think that it might happen again? Why is it difficult to accept that maybe there might be someone willing to love me again?

I wonder... if life is supposed to be so hard? Why we never just cruise? Is it always going to be a struggle? Is it always going to be such an effort to live? Is it always going to take all my energy and effort to manage to survive? To do what I think is right?

I don't have many answers, but I just wonder...