Quantum of Solace

Tonight its time for bond premier in Sweden :) Me and a friend are going to see the film at 00.07

Looking forward to a good movie...

Bored and pondereing

Am in the flat, its late at night, I should be sleeping, however not tired and yet very tired!

Thought I would share a photo with you all from yesterday brunch at O'learys with some good friends. Their kid is amazingly cute :D

With fondness remembering a few wonderful hours with friends, and a few minutes of luxury time with the georgeous baby girl!

LOVE

Malmö

Its rainy and grey, the workday is over and I am pondering what to do... Home with a pizza, then watch a movie and after that dose of to an early night is what I think will be most appropriate :)

I've had a good weekend, hectic, with friends, party and the flue...

Now the week has started on a good note and the future looks bright, at least this week looks entertaining :P

Cold, colder, coldest...

One negative side of being in this blessed country is that it is getting colder by the day. And my toes remind me of the fact that I have frozen them before. As soon as they get a little cooler the blood drains from my toes and the sensation of feeling dissapears... Somehow its probably bad. Anyone got any ideas of action?

Midweek with pondering

The last few months I have made choices that have partly compromised my inner values, decisions that have challenged my standpoint in many matters.

It is insightful to realize that the original inner values I held are still the ones I cherish and wish to hold on to even in the future.

The stupidity of a feable mind

I am tired yet I sit awake watching dvd's...
I am cold yet I am eating icecream...

Monday night

In the company flat, recuperating after the day and charging my batteries getting ready for tomorrow! Had a look in the fridge and found the amazing content of one piece of cheese, one beer and some caviar... haha... hm... should probably go shopping for some breakfast, however not sure I can be bothered. Much more appealing to take a bath, snuggle up with a dvd and get an early night, in the blessed company of myself :)

Messed up, but willing to change

Hey all you amazing people :)

Here is one messed up chick... at least I sometimes wonder over my own status quo...

I am currently packing my stuff, working a little, watching greys anatomy season 4 on dvd and cleaning a flat... tomorrow I move... not very far in distance, but possibly another small step in getting my life in order and everything in shape.

I fall victim to the fact that I am scared of letting people and places close, now I've decided that I have to take the chance at least! Maybe this is all fu**ed up that I'm moving here, maybe it makes no sense, maybe there are better options, maybe is a very comprehensive word opening up so many other alternatives. However, when it boils down to it, I like this town, I like the people, I have fun, I have small everyday adventures! But most of all its a place I chose, for the first time ever this is a place I have chosen to move to... Don't get me wrong, I've obviously chosen to move to other places as well, seeing as I've been there... but this time, there is no job, no one special, no organization, nothing other than me wanting to be here... Through the last 10 years every time I've moved its been because an opportunity has presented itself, always leaving people I love behind... Now theres no opportunity, just a longing to be present somewhere.

So, maybe its a mess, maybe its a bad option, but it's my mess and my option... Hoping and praying that it will sort it self out and turn to be a good one!

New day with exciting opportunities

I made it through the night, probably not the best sleep ever, but ok!

Today I'm working and looking forward to exciting new insights :P

Love

Gallbladder Attack

Pain, pain and then some more pain...

Just got back from a really good night with some friends, my mistake was that we had pizza and then some crisps while watching a movie. The reason this was a mistake is that I had my gallbladder removed in May this year, so my body doesn't tolerate fatty food very well...

Am in the flat and in pain and vomiting... all of which seem to match the gallbladder attack, so I decided to google what is common for an attack? This is what I found:

• Moderate to severe pain under the right side of the rib cage - CHECK - 7 out of 10
• Pain may radiate through to the back or to the right shoulder - CHECK - 6 out of 10 when sitting and 9 out of 10 when lying down.
• Severe upper abdominal pain (biliary colic) - CHECK - 7 out of 10
• Nausea - CHECK
• Queasiness - CHECK
• Vomiting - CHECK
• Gas - CHECK
• Burping or belching - CHECK
• Attacks are often at night - CHECK
• Attacks often occur after overeating - CHECK - girls night... hm
• Pain will often but not always follow a meal with fats or grease - CHECK - Pizza and crisps, doesn't get healthier!
• Pain may be worse with deep inhalation - CHECK - short breaths...
• Attacks can last from 15 minutes to 15 hours

Dear God, am hoping this won't last for more than a couple of hours, the previous ones I've had have lasted 2-4 hours, have been through it 2 times before... but both times with company, tonight I am alone :( really wish I had someone here to hold my hand in the pain... Crap...

Will try and stay awake or at least upright for a few more hours since that seems to be easing the pain a little... Any good ideas on what to do in order to stay awake?

Commuting in swedish autumn

Every year in Sweden autumn comes and results in the trees changing colour and then shedding their leaves... So one would think that in a company founded 1856 they would by now have learnt the fact that the leaves will indeed each year hit the tracks. The case is however that each year this phenomenon manages to catch the train company (SJ) by surprise and there are delays in their timetables due to leaves on the rails... idiotic!!!

Apart from this small point of frustration I have had a good start to the week. The first two days have been productive and life in general is pleasant :D Blessings!

Frustration...

I left my cellphone charger at home... not intentionally... but still... my phone being the age it is survived one day and now its dead... and I will get to a charger tonight... frustration...

Preparations

Tonight the flat is full of paper spread out trying to read up on stuff, getting ready for the working game tomorrow. Packing my bags so that I am ready when the alarm goes of tomorrow to jump out of bed and get going!

Life is an interesting adventure, wouldn't you agree? It's amazing in the sense that every day brings along stuff you truly cherish. At the same time it is so easy to go into a mode of just getting through the days and not observing the extraordinary things in the small ordinary occurrences.

Such as:

• A child's gurgling laughter on the train, when commuting.
• Smiling at a stranger and getting a smile back.
• Sunshine when its not expected.
• An unexpected phone call from an old friend.
• A hug on a rainy day
• Enjoying the autumn leaves and the splendour of nature when on a walk.
• A deep conversation with someone you trust
• A dog in your lap

All of the above are everyday moments, that so easily pass us by without notice! But if we stop, enjoy them just a little, it will bring some extra smiles this week I am sure ;)

Blessings

Common sense... or not!

Sometimes stuff makes sense and suck at the same time...

My concious agrees and my heart disagrees, kinda sucks in total and feels like the right thing as well... hm... what to do... Not that I have much choice in the matter... One of those things where I have to respect the other person... as said... it sucks!

Time to shake the ass

Sometimes life offers opportunities to escape reality a little bit or maybe a better terminology is opportunity to shed some energy :P

Tonight is a night like that... I am meeting up with a good friend and we are hitting the dancefloors of the town to shake some ass... I pitty the man that tries to pull us tonight... ;) Just because I am on the dancefloor does not invite to touch, such moves result in a black eye for the bloke :P

Just wish to remind you all to enjoy the extra small moments of life! They are all over the place each day, the challenge is to find them and enjoy them a little extra, remembering that they will never come around again!

Just thoughts

I'm on my back in the sofa with a laptop in my lap :) My two cousins have gone for a walk attempting to get the one kid to sleep, while possibly picking up the other from daycare on their way back. Different lives from mine altogether :P

However days like these are rare and special, time to just chill, to be with people I love and who love me. Not for something I deliver or produce, but simply because I am me... It's a good feeling!

My mind starts wandering of into places I'm not sure is healthy; will I ever be in a house, with a husband and kids? not sure... do I want to be..? I think I do... The thought of sharing my life with someone is appealing. It brings a longing that I wasn't sure I previously possessed. Question is where it leaves me? As far as I'm concerned you don't just walk on to the street and shop for a man to parttake in your life?

Ok - so my life is kinda a mess... haha... I'll be the first to admit to that... I have somewhere to stay for another week... then, who knows. I am in a city I want to be in, just need to figure out how that is going to happen. I have a job 3 hours away, will be commuting a few days per week. My friends are scattered all over the place, thanks to the fact that I have been scattered all over the place! Now that I just want to settle down, be somewhere, impact lives a little more than the honeymoon period of a relationship I find myself on the verge of being lost. Even hesitating on the simple question if I have it in me? Whether I do or don't it isn't exactly lined up to meet a man, maybe I've stumbled onto him already, but I'm not sure he thinks so... Till later skater!

Now it is time to prepair for the return of the children :) I shall be the fun aunty who plays and makes them laugh :P Then convince myself that I'm not missing out cause I don't have my own...

Back to reality?

Sometimes you wake up and realize that life is no more or less than just life! Know the feeling?

Every day is full of emotions, questions, decisions and moments... All of which you either cherish or just let go.

The last 10 days have contained a little bit of everything! Haha - ok, that wasn't exactly specific, but I've had moments where I've laughed till I cried. I've been out in the forest on horseback and yelled my lungs out. I've been warm and cuddly, also cold and freezing! I've been exited and extatic but also sad and a little down.

On the whole I would say that I have had a good 10 days :) Sorry for keeping quite on the blog, will be better and let you know whats happening :)

Blessings